I WILL NEVER FORGET(SPOKEN WORD)

I’m in love and I feel lost,
No one ever told me with love there comes a cost,
My world is becoming unclear as it’s being consumed by moss,
Most of myself I’ve loss.
Pardon me as I get blunt,
But only I know what I’ve experienced the past 6 months,
So go ahead, judge me, because I won’t give a f*ck.
All of this angst has built up inside of me,
Despite my requests my heart ignores my brain’s pleas,
My heart can’t take it when you just randomly leave,
And my heart can’t take when you have an episode and are so cold 
and mean,
I’ve actually noticed that every month this repeats,
Yet my heart won’t accept defeat,
You see you’re what it feens,
And it never lets me forget not even in my dreams.
I never know when I should allow myself to call,
So sometimes I don’t and just crawl in a ball,
It also bothers me that I’m not the only one you call doll,
I’m scared just like the rest that you’ll let me fall,
And I really don’t want to go through a state of withdrawal,
So to prevent this I’ll always be here for you to stand tall.
From the day that I met you I knew my life would change,
I’d really appreciate it though if you stopped playing games,
My mind is no longer the same,
And myself is the only one I can put blame,
For what we both want is not the same,
I’m a lioness that wants to be tamed,
But I don’t know how much longer my heart can endure pain,
I’ve even asked assistance from the man in vain,
And myself is the only one I can blame.