Who am i ?

My sister gets all the love
And support she needs
She has always been first
In your mind and heart

who am i ?

My brother gets anything
He wants even when he
Doesn’t deserve it at all
Because he’s the baby

I’m the one you can
Count on to watch the
Animals or the kid when
You go somewhere

I’m the one that is the
Last person to know
What’s going on and
The last one you consider

What If I want to go
With you when you go
What if I want to do
The same things with you

Why don’t I get the same
Kind of love and support
That they get, aren’t I
Just as important

Don’t I deserve the same
Consideration as them
Don’t I deserve the same
Kind of love and support

Am I not your daughter
Don’t I deserve the same
As your other daughter
Or your son

who am i ?

If I try to tell you how
I feel you get angry and
Upset that I feel this way
Why can’t you understand

I can’t understand why
My feelings make you
Angry and why I am the
One that always gets left behind

Why don’t you take me
With you or plan things
So that I can go with you
Or be more involved in your life

It’s like you don’t know me
Or even care to know me
So I guess I’ll just leave
You three alone

Don’t call me if you want
Someone to watch the animals
Or the kid until you include me
Because I want to be included

I am no longer the watcher
I guess I will make it by myself
Until I feel I am accepted by the
Family I was born into

Until then, I stand alone
it won’t be new to me
cos thus i have always been
alone for ages

Stages of lonliness
I have known
passed through
its now part of me

I will stand alone
until you know am worth your love
until am recognized
and never antagonized

Until then i will cease to exist
like i have always done
like you made me to
never to be in your mind

Sadness has known my name
tears knowing no bound
but you never knew
never knew my name

Until then
let me dwell in my sadness
swim in my tears
until then

Who am i ?

Leave Me Alone

Please go away, I don’t mean to be rude
I don’t want your kind words
Or another platitude.

Why don't you just stay away from my place
I don’t want you round here:
Don’t need you in my face

I’m hurting okay, let me deal with my pain
Please don’t make me have to ask you
To go away again.

I do understand that you only mean well
But I need time on my own now
To work through this hell.

Why won’t you just listen to what I have to say?
I’m fine now, believe me
I really am okay

Sure, it’s been rough for the past day or two:
Give me time and space to deal with it
And I will pull through.

It’s not the pain that’s the killer, it’s being on my own
You know I have never done well with
Being left all alone

That’s not an invitation for you to hang around every day
You’ll just get on my nerves
And you’ll get in the way.

Please don’t keep pressuring me to change my mind
I don’t mean to be hurtful
Or seem ungrateful or unkind.

Just go away until I feel more like talking to you
I know it’s not what you want
But it’s what I need you to do.

Please leave me alone and just let me be
I need time to grieve and regroup now
I need space to be me.

Believe

Everything's easy after it's done;
Every battle's a 'cinch' that's won;
Every problem is clear that's solved--
The earth was round when it revolved!

But Washington stood amid grave doubt
With enemy forces camped about;
He could not know how he would fare
Till after he'd crossed the Delaware.

Though the river was full of ice
He did not think about it twice,
But started across in the dead of night,
The enemy waiting to open the fight.

Likely feeling pretty blue,
Being human, same as you,
But he was brave amid despair,
And Washington crossed the Delaware!

So when you're with trouble beset,
And your spirits are soaking wet,
When all the sky with clouds is black,
Don't lie down upon your back

And look at them. Just do the thing;
Though you are choked, still try to sing.
If times are dark, believe them fair,
And you will cross the Delaware!

PURPOSE

Blessed is the man, indeed,
Who in this life can find;
A purpose that can fill his days,
And goals to fill his mind!

The world is filled with little men
Content with here they are;
Not knowing joys success can bring,
No will to go that far!

Yet, in this world there is a need,
For men to lead the rest
To rise above the "average" life,
By giving of their best!

Would you be one, who dares to try,
When challenged by the task;
To rise to heights you've never seen,
Or is that too much to ask?

This is your day--a world to win
Great purpose to achieve;
Accept the challenge of your goals
And in yourself, believe! 

You will be proud of what you've done,
When at the close of day;
You look back on your battles won,
Content, you came this way!

SELF LOVE

I can't run the fastest
I can't swim the sea
I can't type the quickest
but I love being me

I can't kick a ball
or even climb a tree
I can't roll in the grass
but I still love being me

You see, this is my life
as others would see
they don't know what it's like
to really be me

So next time I'm about
rolling down the street
don't think of me disabled
but someone cool to meet

I have lots I can teach you
I have loads I can share
you will never gain my wisdom
if you just point and stare

So maybe I can't run the fastest
maybe I can't kick a ball
but I wouldn't change being me
not for you, not at all

BEST LEGACY

I've copied you, Mother
My words echo your voice
You're my shining example
The one of my choice

Not thinking about it
I've copied your style
The way that you walk
The way that you smile

You fashioned my dreams
You painted my hopes
I've learned to make knots
At the end of my ropes

We all learn to love,
But not from a friend
I learned your strength
And when I should bend

Mom, you've mapped the way
To Heaven above
By teaching me kindness
By teaching me love

Pray for Mum

Dear Mom, I said a prayer for you
to thank the Lord above
For blessing me with a lifetime
of your tenderhearted love. 

I thanked God for the caring
you've shown me through the years,
For the closeness we've enjoyed
in time of laughter and of tears. 

And so, I thank you from the heart
for all you've done for me
And I bless the Lord for giving me
the best mother there could be

MY BEST FRIEND (to my mum)

You were my fairy tale princess,
So much larger than life.
You were my angel and my witness
Through all my pain and strife.

At times you made me angry,
Great words I would proclaim
How someday you'd be sorry.
You were the one to blame.

But when I needed comforting
You always found the time.
Your words were more soothing
Than days of childhood sublime.
 
Now the distance holds us apart,
The boundaries have no end. 
I'll hold the memories in my heart. 
You're my mother, my best friend

PERFECT MUM

Lord, You knew what you were doing,
when you made our Mum.
You knew you'd reached perfection,
and could never make another one.

You had made a one off model.
So you threw away the mold.
You gave Mum the patients of a Saint,
and a heart of pure gold!

You gave her eyes that never looked
for fault in anyone.
You filled her soul with so much love,
and compassion by the ton.

You gave her sympathetic ears,
and such understanding too.
She would always lend a helping hand,
if there was something she could do.

Friends can come, and friends can go.
But there was no friend like our Mum.
Lord. you must have felt so proud,
when you saw just what you'd done.

To some she might have seemed naive.
But those who love her know her worth.
For Lord. When you created Mum,
you placed an Angel on this earth.

MY ANGEL (Dedicated to my mum}

To the one who gave me life
I can give nothing but love
To the star so full of light
to the one sent from up above.

Thank you for the kindness
for everything you do
thank you for the happiness
thanks for seeing me through.

I love you more than anything
I'll love you to the end
you are my mother first
then my very best friend.

It is unusual what we share
everything I do you know,
every beautiful quality
you have in you, I try to show.

Not often enough do I tell you
how much you mean to me
Not often enough do I show you
how your love set me free

To live forever and always
Is what I wish for you.
A long life ever-lasting
for one so sacred and true

You are my special angel
who I always find comfort in
whether life is in a shambles
whether I lose or whether I win

To the one who gave me life,
I can give nothing but love
to the one who genuinely is,
sent from heaven above

USEFUL YOUTH MAKING A DIFFERENCE

Just look inside you, feel it in your heart. There's something in there, something like a park. It's so magnificent, full of vigor. It's the power of youth you should savor. Don't squander it, put it to good use, friend. Else, you'll be sorry and cry in the end. With this power, you can do lots of things, Just think about the joy a good deed brings. Let's not indulge in smoking and liquor, Those things are bad, and they cause some terror. Eat healthy and have lots of exercise, Let's take care of our own bodies, it's nice! Why don't we move closer to God, brothers? He gave us all, including our fathers. Practice holiness and serve Him truly. Love one another. Let's seek Him early. Chance for salvation is not there always. Grab the opportunity, change your ways. Let's strive for sanctity; our knees, let's bend. A time will come when the whole world will end. Even if you gain the whole world indeed, It's useless if you're in a wicked creed. For what shall gold profit a somebody, If he'll lose his soul for eternity? Again, I tell you, my beloved friend, Use your power to repent, not offend. Never act like a savage, it's not good. Everyone, let us all do what we should.

BED OF POEM

Make love to me with
your song, poem your poetry.
Flow slowly-do not rush it.
not so fast.

Let your words last.
Stroke me slowly
Put your back into it
Caress my totality

Draw me into your world
let me succumb -to your glib tongue
I hear your commands
As you slowly express
how capable you are

Expanding my mind
taking me places I've never been
Firmly holding me in the grips
of your suspense.

I was tense
Waiting for the end - you letting me
down gently as your poem ended
I bask in the after math-of a poetry bath

Thinking of the ecstasy of
where your poetry took me.
I let down my hair-because
you swoon creativity

I get off on your enunciation
and affections- inflections
Word erections-sensitivity
and vulnerability.

Allowing me to feel every word-
as you speak slowly
you enter me with your "diction".
Slow and easy you speak to me
Stroking me with your poetry...

You took me to peaks
of ecstasy-with your
sweet glib tongue
and that's why I -
let you make..
Make sweet Poetry to me..

NEVER GIVE UP

Do you believe in the things that you've always known,
Can you understand the things you've been shown.
   Is it the visions you see that make you believe,
Or is the feelings you get when you've been deceived.
    The pain you feel a never ending ache ,
Tearing your heart and soul from you every day.
    Time ticks slowly pounding away at you,
Throbbing heart breaking and there's nothing you can do,
    Must I settle for these lost and broken dreams,
Because it has all the signs that what it seems.
    How much should a man endure to find his way,
It cant possibly be like this hard for me every day.
    There is nothing so frustrating as being so confused,
Especially when you've discovered that you've been used.
    I will get through this lonely phase I have no doubts,
But I'm sure there will come a day I'll figure it all out.
    Cautiously I walk the path that's been laid before me,
In faith I will continue for I know he will let me see.
    Life will be thrown at you in so many different ways,
I will be prepared for these things for the rest of my days.
    Broken dreams will be the learning tree for me to grow ,
Living my life with Joy Happiness is what I'll always Know.
tac

May the love of JESUS touch you

May the Love of Jesus Touch You!

May the love of Jesus bless and touch you!
May his presence be with
 and uplift you!

May the joys of the love make
 you complete!
And touch you, from your
 head to your feet!

May the glory of the lord
 be with and keep you!
His majestic power can really touch you!

May the words that he’s spoken,
touch your spirit!
His mercy and salvation… 
 He freely give it!

May the sweetness of Jesus,
 into your life bring!
His righteousness and beauty!  
Your everything!

May you take some time
 with Jesus in prayer?
How much he loves you! 
 How much he cares!

I WILL NEVER FORGET(SPOKEN WORD)

I’m in love and I feel lost,
No one ever told me with love there comes a cost,
My world is becoming unclear as it’s being consumed by moss,
Most of myself I’ve loss.
Pardon me as I get blunt,
But only I know what I’ve experienced the past 6 months,
So go ahead, judge me, because I won’t give a f*ck.
All of this angst has built up inside of me,
Despite my requests my heart ignores my brain’s pleas,
My heart can’t take it when you just randomly leave,
And my heart can’t take when you have an episode and are so cold 
and mean,
I’ve actually noticed that every month this repeats,
Yet my heart won’t accept defeat,
You see you’re what it feens,
And it never lets me forget not even in my dreams.
I never know when I should allow myself to call,
So sometimes I don’t and just crawl in a ball,
It also bothers me that I’m not the only one you call doll,
I’m scared just like the rest that you’ll let me fall,
And I really don’t want to go through a state of withdrawal,
So to prevent this I’ll always be here for you to stand tall.
From the day that I met you I knew my life would change,
I’d really appreciate it though if you stopped playing games,
My mind is no longer the same,
And myself is the only one I can put blame,
For what we both want is not the same,
I’m a lioness that wants to be tamed,
But I don’t know how much longer my heart can endure pain,
I’ve even asked assistance from the man in vain,
And myself is the only one I can blame.

 

Poet's way of love

When poets make love on pages

They put words were sexy words fit perfectly

They smooth run cold conversations and blocks of ice in slow motion

On all romantic options

They block fear away from these unstable oceans

While seducing all attractive images of faultless pickup lines

They fly like homeless flies befriending endless dreams on skyscrapers

Poets paraphrase their faces when they kiss on papers

They eeeechooooo echo kisses in repetition until notorious predictions are detained and predicted

In hand held inspirations they cook unbelievable recipes

They compose verses on home-made beds

Even worse

kitchens turn into Bedroom beds

Their kitchens are pre prepared prier portions of word recitals and fork and knives

Date or no date their mandates are easy to date

Snitch and Sneak preview their unspoken slams on different dates

Fight back for all that’s bad with your madness in different dates

They're licenced to use military expressions

They mic tongues naming each kiss a masterpiece speaking back on all evil kills

They terrorize silence in screams of pleasurable skills

Neighbors have rights to take sleeping pills

Poets can scream their pleasures in love making moments

These humans master piece their body languages in flings

Paragraphs of candle lights and strawberries paint their private lives

High five to those who date multiple poems on a single date

Poets love loving love on hateful dates

Poets love making love

They careless

if you mimic their rhythmic drums

When they

caress your skin with Goosebumps

They drive their mics in circle with no driver's licence

They sense love from a distance with no expense

Love makes composers love speaking in tongues

With lights up all night long they forget life is time

Take your time kinda like love making times

They tease multiple metaphors with background music

Stripping truth naked

Poets don’t miss their past lovers

They know how the book ends

They plant baby poems on each other's bosoms

Hugging all night

like sober minded blushes

When poets make love in pages

They put words were sexy words fit perfectly

Lovers Pain

Love left them hanging in the air
They sang slogans
They rained tears though pain was blur and cloudy,
Moody, 
Bully and partly cloudy
Illusions got glued in their slogans
Their love was outrageous and bouncy 

Those short tempered lovers 
Sang songs for their drunken worries
They saw no pain though love was forever sour and chained

Their jaws were breaking laws

Our jaws are breaking laws  

Pain buried himself under pleasurable bedroom eyes
Resurrected on sunny knights with no weight 
Measured their smiles 
And he found odd numbers in their cupid time zone

Days when pressure became their treasure 
Pain snitched in the dark and paused on bedroom eyes
Eyes that vacuumed lust 
Previously crowned lust 
that never lasted long enough to grave all rust 

Their jaws were breaking laws
Our jaws are breaking laws

They sang love songs in anger
On and on they sang courage amplifying worries
Never wash your face before my words
Remember my seeds
The fruits planted on concrete brains
Left to grow strength and passion
Building castles of hope 

Love seeks more woods and light to walk its blindness sometimes
The defensive jelly 
Smoothly rubbed to take away skin value
Chocolate statues lost in the streets of love
 Singing worried slogans

Their jaws were breaking laws
Our jaws are breaking laws

I long to save them from this lost in translation watchwords 
I am you in this Poetry
Pointing blames with no hands and fingers
They swim out of the ocean 
The ocean of tears that make killer waves in passion
Like fish 
They could not breathe 
Trouble was or is their home
They sing gospel in their drunken love

By force they speak jumpy jaws
They are meant to hurt,
burn and kill gender laws
By force they chisel their hips to diesel all body postures

For no reason

Force they sing gross slogans of love
In jumpy jaws
They get stark inside antagonistic love
In jumpy jaws
Pre-rehearsed parent-hood
Love left them hanging in the air

First Love never dies

You were the first promise I was willing to keep,
my first hope that something could last forever.

You were the first time I opened up like a blooming flower
and gave you every piece of me,
every lie I’ve told,
every nightmare that kept me wide awake,
all of my hopes and dreams stored somewhere safe inside of you.

You taught me that there is no shame in unwinding myself 
into someone else’s arms,
that it’s time I exposed my gentleness that I’ve hidden beneath my thick skin,
for it hasn’t seen the sun in years

You were the first person I failed to find a poem in
because I loved you down to your bare bones and raw heart
and no metaphor could ever satisfy my admiration for every part of you.

You were the first time I wanted to belong to someone,
the first time I could read a thread of text messages like reading my favorite book,
my first kiss,
my first time getting butterflies after just hearing your name.

You were my favorite song,
my 11:11 wish;
a silly girl staring at a clock, waiting for the numbers to be perfectly inline 
so that she could wish to forever keep a love that already belonged to her.

You were my super love

But at last you left during supper

And yet to return

but i await your return

What a Love....

If words could envelop fire,

I’d whisper softly into a quiet

note and let the pyre in my

lonely coffer spill out it’s smokey dispatch.

Letting pathos glow inside carrion’s beat,

I would endeavor this note reach a messenger

with quick feet, so that you would read it before

I became nothing more than a ruin,

damned by it’s own occasion.

I would speak with a gentle urgency,

through teeth like embers of brimstone.

" Let not your tender humor steer you

in a direction that would wilt us both

Fan the flames that have consumed me,

It’s a burn that fuels our passion

I love you and the pain that you bring,

you are the brightness in the sky,

and the darkness of night.

You are the sting of broken flesh,

and the sweet release of blood that flows.

You are the healing of my blackened benevolence,

and the anger in my wisdom.

You are my second eye, 

and my heaviest anchor.

You are the spark,

and the kindle.

You are my Queen.”

WHY BE DUMB?

FAREWELL MY OLD FRIEND

I am nowhere near who you want me to be. I scream so loud for you to come save me. but when I don’t hear you, I swallow my sadness and throw my rage into these walls in attempt to destroy all the pain in my heart.

 All that’s left is the overwhelming silence. once again I search for you to comfort me and soon I begin to realize that not even I am my own friend. if I am not who you want me to be, then what am I? The day you left me still replays in my head. it throws me down, forcing me to my knees.

 I feel this pain shooting through my veins. I cry myself to sleep, burying these secrets into my the tears streaming down my face. And you? You sleep so peacefully at night, not a worry to keep you up.

 I am not who I was when we met for the first time. You fell in love with the girl with a fake smile. My sadness was hidden behind a mask. I wish we never met, you brought me so much pain and sorrow. But at the same time I am thankful for you.

 If it wasn’t for you being a coward and leaving me abused and abandoned, I would have never gotten the strength to fend for myself and to be able to pick myself up and start again.

 I vow never to follow you down that dark path leading to a world where rage is all that exist. Never again. So you will never hear me apologize for not being who you want me to be.

 I have been thinking too much, I must stop. Record this in your mind, for it will be the last time you flood my thoughts.
 So a farewell to you, my old friend.

Adversity helps you become an Entrepreneur
   Agina Gideon

Perfect Sacrifice

I was lost 

lost without hope

my root i forgot

i wandered in the wilderness of sin

and was tattered 

I left my throne and cleaved to thorns 

wild i became 

Fathers love forgotten and exchanged for pleasure

pressure to sin sin increased and i wandered far in it

a prince and a heir to the throne 

Strained was i and drained was my soul

stain filled my garment and my glory taken away

like a sheep i strayed away from the shepherd's love 

and alone i wandered in the wilderness 

yet never wondered why

A price was to be pained for my soul

else no freedom

I had no money

thus was i held

and bound

My shepherd left His aboard 

and came in search of a soul

He came trashing mountains

and hills just for a soul

my lost soul

The depth of his love so deep

deeper than oceans

purer than gold

 the love for a lost soul

my soul

  He came with a crown 

 and exchanged my thorn for it 

forsaken by his own father

mocked by crowd

yet never murmured

all for me

The love of my shepherd

found me wallowing in dirt

debts hanging on my neck

debts needed to be paid

with his life he paid

 He paid and saved my soul

debts cleared and i was freed 

never to be bound

His blood he shed 

 just for my soul

He made a sacrifice 

so strong and pure

restored me to my throne

my glory restored

 what a sacrifice!!

Sacrifice so perfect 

pure and sure

the right sacrifice bearing light

sacrifice of my shepherd was undisputed

perfect sacrifice

IWA MY LOVE

  

Love is beautiful

Love is golden

Pure as gold

Glitters like the star                                                     

Refined and defined

Founded under a fountain

The first time I saw you

I dazzled like a damsel

Damned by the beauty        

Beyond my expression

Express and smooth

Like an expressway

I wondered and pondered

This love is smooth

Sweet without sweat

Easy and never ceasing

Love that can change fate

I saw love and was love

  

Oh what a love I found

Like a fountain it flowed through me

Never bitter

Never bitter

No stain it can’t filter

Never to wither

Fist of this love hit me

First of its kind yet wasn’t kind

Easy to understand

Hard to withstand

It hit me

And I fell

Bell of your love rang                                                            

Sounds of love I heard

Tales of love I have heard

I fell to rise again

 surrounded by ice

Like a country called Iceland

So your love rounded me

I wished to remain in love

If am to rise I will rise under your love

For it is a treasure sought by kings

Riches can never buy

Cost but not cost

Iwa is filled with love

Love that crushed hills

Filled with passion

I met Iwa and was crushed

Crushed by love stronger than I

My heart changed and chained to a fountain

Fountain that will never dry

This love is strong and straight

Light and right

It lightened my heart

Tightened my lions

Iwa I loved and will forever love