Love and Pain

I once thought you loved me

 Your words I trusted

Your breath I once desired to feel

Aspired to always be your desire

                                        

You made believed every word you ever said to me

Filled my memory with thoughts

Your own thoughts

My gaze became filled with your face

You told me not to look at the sky

Made me believe it wasn’t meant for me

You became my sky

The sky that reflects my moon

I never believed in promise

Not until I met you

Never believed in true love

Until my eyes beheld you

I was threw off my balance the moment I approached you

My speech left me

My vocal organs became dormant

Confused state I was thrown

Promises I made to myself became broken

Broken and replaced by your own promises

Reasons to love

The joy to be loved you gave me

Joy I thought no man would ever take from me

My state and fate you changed

And I became empty

Yet filled with your thoughts

All these while I thought they were all true

True like your beauty

Beauty that can never be washed away

Beauty that has come to stay

I never knew it was vanity

Never knew it will one day fade away

Away like ashes before the wind

Away like a melted ice

But how can I know

When I was lost

Lost in my thought of you

Lost in vanity that will fade

I never knew until you left

I never understood until I looked for you

Searching through winter and summer

Searching for a beauty that has long gone

Beauty that has gone beyond my reach

Gone never to return again

Gone as ashes

Washed away by wind

You left not minding all your promises

Promises made out of a solemn heart

Saddled by love

Promise made with love

To the great world beyond you went

World where my word will never reach

Never to penetrate

A world of great hunters

That is where you choose to be

A land where men and women has travelled to

But never returned

That is where you choose to be

You left and so did the joy

Joy that was once my strength

Joy that came out of our love

Joy untold is now being told

Now I weep

Like Moulisa I mourn

Shedding tears that you never wished to see

Tears of pain

Pains of love

Will my tears know an end?

Will I ever see your beautiful face?

Will I be given another chance to behold the source of my joy?

Joy once untold

I live with hope

Hope from an unknown source

Hope stronger than love

Hope that one day we shall meet to part no more